Sometimes I have to re-evaluate my life and where my heart and mind truly lie. I had to recently ask myself if I truly trust in The Most High. As I sit and ponder where I have been and what I have been doing, I realized that I was becoming more dependent on money over The Most High. I was caught up in the world. It was nothing that I intended to do on purpose. It will sneak up on you and before you realize it you have become more worldly than you have ever been.
The reason as to why I said that I was becoming to caught up, is because before I was able to say, “Eyes a free man!” I was pondering for months on whether or not I should pay off my school loans. My bank account balance would be brought down to a number lower than I have seen in years. I didn’t want to lose the comfort that the money afforded me. At that time I could have literally bought and did anything that I wanted at any given moment. To go from being in abundance to just having means was a scary thought. Then it hit me, I was finding solace and comfort in material things. Things that are here today and gone tomorrow. I was too caught up.
Matthew 6:26 reads, “Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” The Most High will surely provide for his most coveted creation, right? I needed to let go of that fear of what could happen. A fear that I was making up in my own mind. Living in fear is the exact opposite of walking with real faith. Faith in yourself and the gifts that The Most High provided you with will always get you through.
Ever since I let go of that fear of the unknown, I have been freer than I have been. I am no longer caught up in the system. It doesn’t weigh on my heart and mind as it once did. This system is designed to keep us everyday folks boggled down by unnecessary burdens. We are so caught up that we lose sight of all the things that truly matter. This wasn’t written to discourage people from grinding and achieving wealth because I am still out here getting it myself. I just know that I need to keep my perspective in order.