My mans Rob was just clowning me about writing two, three, maybe four sentence post. He’s right, but some times trying to save the world is draining.
On Kendrick Lamar’s CD “To Pimp a Butterfly” he was interviewing Pac. The whole concept was pure genius. Hats off to Kendrick for being this creative. There is one part of the interview that I resonated with me. I would like to address it and find out how you feel about it. The part of the interview that I would like to address is right. Read this real quick and then I would like for you to stick your two cents in.
Kendrick: Aight well, how long you think it take before n!&&@$ be like,
We fighting a war, I’m fighting a war I can’t win and I wanna lay it all downPac: In this country a black man only have like five years we can exhibit maximum strength
And that’s right now while you a teenager
While you still strong or while you still wanna lift weights,
While you still wanna shoot back
‘Cause once you turn thirty it’s like they take the heart and soul out of a man
Out of a black man in this country
And you don’t wanna fight no more
And if you don’t believe me you can look around,
You don’t see no loud mouth thirty-year old muthaFers
Alright so here’s my take. I am 31 years young and I am about to be 32 at the end of the month. I have been going really hard for my people for the past thirteen years. And I must admit that it is draining at times. I have been banging and still do to this day, but it feels as if it falls on deaf ears. I know that I have helped a lot of people within my short time here on earth and I plan to help a lot moor. I have only been banging for 13 years not realizing that it is going to take a lot moor time than that to repair 400 years of mental conditioning.
At times I may be drained. But I have learned to sit back, relax, chill, meditate, regroup in order to have the inner G to come up with a master plan.
I think with age you become or should become wiser. Especially when you get into the 30 year ball park. For instance, I want to build up (not settle down) and start a family. I can’t scream, “Family Equals Perfection!”, but I don’t have one of my own. I see that I have to be that example. I used to scream a lot and get angry when I was younger. That may seem like to the “ignorant – lacking knowledge” (in which I was and still am to many things) that is making a difference and real activism, but that is only the very beginning pieces of the puzzle.
What would be moor beneficial to me and my community? Running around screaming or building a strong black family. Building a legacy that other people can learn from and branch off of.